Why is it that when I hook up with a girl she’s the only person I want to fuck, think about, jack-off to when she isn’t around or otherwise dedicate my energies too? I feel like a freak. Or at the least an old person with old values living in a world of today’s pornography where those values are so completely outdated that yeah, you are a freak. Who the fuck thinks and acts the way I do in this business these days?
Then I have the other perplexing problem of being a guy who actually gets different girls off each week. Girls that sometimes tell me I gave them a religious experience, a life changing experience. And here’s the really suck-y part about this, I am so incredibly picky about what turns me on that this act hasn’t given me a woody since I can remember. I treat this endeavour so completely as a job that no chick who I’d want to date would ever believe that (except for the last girl I dated). It seriously takes a strong female to form an intimate relationship with a guy like me. Trust me dick-thinking, young buck boys, that cuts your playing field down quite a bit. And while you may think that could work to your advantage –I’m personally not that guy. I’m not into fucking every girl I come across. Never have been. In the two years I’ve been running this web site there has only been two women I reached out to. Two women whom I felt so compelled as to actually engage personally. That’s it. Two. Deuce. I seriously need substance, and, admittedly, a strong sexual connection, before I could ever even consider asking a girl on a date.
Thank god that I’m not stricken with some crippling shyness. Because If you are someone I’m interested in there will be no doubt that you know it. Those two chicks I mentioned previously, well, we certainly got to know each other a whole lot better.