It was clear from her email that she was far more pure than the typical respondent. So pure, so naive and so innocent –even gullible– that she would be, if I had her in, a girl far unlike any ever seen here at The Attic.
From her application…
Comments : I’m completely new to the BDSM world, but I’m a hard worker and will try my best to push my limits and do what you want.
If you need me to lose weight or get new hair/make up I’ll totally undersand and I’d be happy to apply at a later date if I’m not good enough yet.
Thank you so much!
I followed up with some information and questions. Her first reply was lengthy, so, in part, here are salient portions:
I feel like I just got acccepted into a Club For Awesomeness. Thank you so much for replying quickly– I was holding my breath about it!
I’ve looked through the entire model pages, and am slowly going through each entry in your blog (I got two years to catch up on, and you wrote quite a bit in that span of time!). I find your blog to be the most insightful, honestly. Also, it makes me hungry. Stop taking such nice pictures of all that food. Grr.
Four hours for a shoot– would I be allowed to go to the bathroom and get a sip of water if I needed to? I’ve never done this sort of thing so I’d like to apologize in advance for my dumb questions.
I’ve had very little in-the-field experience with being tied up. I asked my husband to try that sort of thing and he did, but I wiggled halfway out and played with myself when he left me alone for too long. Then he just sort of was like “oh, okay. Well. Hum.” And it’s really hard for me to get submissive if I have to direct how things are going to go– I overthink and stress out and can’t let go.
So long as I know you aren’t going to HARM (different than hurt, I stress) me, I should be fine with what you’ll be doing.
Again, never tried humiliation play, or uh, pretty much any type of play. Husband occasionally tries to verbally uh… play? He’ll say things like “Oh, do you like that?” or ask me if I want more, or condescendingly observe if I like something a lot. I know you’re playing a wholly different field of experiences at The Attic, so as long as it’s okay (as in, you can sell the product) to look completely ugly/humiliated/disgraced on camera, I’ll do my best for you.
Luther I’m worried about– if you still decide to use me I’ll probably want to wait a little bit so I can practice at home– I have a terrible gag reflex and have no idea what I look like while giving head. I have a pretty thick (though not very long) dildo and a full length mirror– I’m sure I’ll be able to figure it out before I take on Luther. Does effort count, or just how much I can down?
Miscellaneous question time!
Is it okay if I tremble? When I’m scared/nervous I tremble. Like, chihuahua without a sweater tremble. I do it before a shot, before the dentist, before a big test– am I going to be a bother if I’m like that?
Will I be in trouble if I arrive early? I am really ridiculous about not being late to things, so sometimes I end up arriving half an hour early– will you slash my tires if I’m sitting in my car for a half hour ’cause I was paranoid about being late?
If I’m early, can I stretch before we go into tying me up? Not on working time of course, but you won’t send me packing if I’m in your driveway trying to loosen up my back?
While you’re shooting (I think you guys shoot the part where you’re getting the rope work all situated? Before all of the actual like, spaking, gagging, etc. goes on? Just the long process of making knot after knot…?) is it okay to talk? I talk when I’m nervous, so I’m sure it won’t be long until you’ll be gagging me out of annoyance anyway…
In the Interview shot, should I ask nitty-gritty questions (”Is it okay of I giggle if you tickle me with the rope or is that bad?” “If I do a good job can I pet Victor?” “What IS a TENS unit?”) Or should I just shoot you another email with any questions I think up?
Will there be any actual testing (like how hard you’ll be spanking etc.) before the shoot? Do you film that part as well?
If I am horrible at the shoot, can I make it up by helping clean up and put things away and bleach the set? I shovel cow pies REALLY well, I’m happy to help out if I’m no good as a model.
Should I be wearing make up at all? I don’t wear any in real life, but I’m assuming you want some so I’m pretty enough to shoot? I know you don’t want heavy stuff, but when I show up I don’t want to be looking bad either way. In that vein, you want me to wear nice clothes– like a dress, or like a nice blouse with jeans? I know you hate ugly shoes.
And lastly, would I be able to come in as a Good Girl for my first shoot? Is there anything that borders between all-out Bad Girl (where you come home with bruises and welts and ate food that had been stored in your nether regions?) and Good Girl (where you come home having been only tied up?) Would I be wasting your time if I wanted to just try being spanked and gagged and tied up? Should I just wait and try for when I can do all the stuff your girls can do?
I am SO sorry for the length of all this. I need to learn that “elaborate” is not sanctioning a novel.
I’m nervous and willing to try most stuff, have no experience, and when can I start?
I believe in God like I believe in the sun, not because I can see it, but because of it all things are seen.
— C.S. Lewis
HOLY SHIT. I did not reply to it for a couple of weeks. But in that interim her husband wrote to me as well, on her behalf:
Hey my name is xxxx my wife Naomi recently applied for your modeling gig I just wanted you to know how much it means to her, she told me you accepted her application, she is so excited she has always wanted to do bondage I just have no experiance in it and was wondering if after the shoot maybe you could send some Fantasie scripts and how toos on the knots you use maybe if you have a workshop the enrolment info thanks again love your work. -xxxx xxxxxxxx
I had her come in to see us.