Marina first wrote to me some five months back. I responded to her email with one of my own. Problem was, as is so typical, I never received a reply. Obviously, she wasn't quite ready to come in and see us. So, after many months passed by I received another email from her. It went something like this...

Hello JR--

Please forgive the lapse in communication. Since our initial e-mailing, I have since done other modeling-- solo stills and videos, and have had good experiences. I feel a thousand times more comfortable being sexual in front of a camera now, and I would definitely love to talk about projects with you. What has led me back to you, is that whilst my modeling experiences have been enjoyable enough-- it actually got a little bit dull after awhile. There was nothing particularly sexually transgressive about it for me, and I would really like to explore a different kind of modeling.

There is one key thing that is utmostly intriguing to me about bdsm modeling: I believe my reactions will be far more genuine than in a more typical enviornment. And really, I am interested in a very raw, very real representation of what is going on, rather than performing and never even getting wet. Also, I am naturally sexually dominant, and I am ridiculously curious about being a sub, as relinquishing this control titilates and scares me....

..Well, howdy doo. Nice to see you are feeling more confident about yourself and a trip into The Attic. Um, well, yes, sexually transgressive and getting wet. I think we captured those elements for you, no? I mean heck, at one point I was wishing I had a spoon so that I could have fed you your own cum which kept seeping out and down to your a-hole. And all that spray you left on my concrete floor. Was it transgressive enough when I told you to rub your face all in it while hogtied?

OK, I got a little ahead of myself. I wrote her back and asked her about the length of time it required her to reply to my initial email back to her. The response was....

Hello JR,

First and foremost, please don't be offended at the length of time it took for me to write you back. I just hadn't made up my mind yet whether I wanted to explore BDSM modeling, and I needed to experiement with other projects first. I didn't know then that photographers are much more personable and understanding than what I initially thought, and I didn't want to write you an ambivalet e-mail outlining my various emotional responses. I'm not really the type that needs coaxing from a photographer, or coaxing to do anything unusual, and I simply needed to have my mind made up on my own terms before I contacted you again.

..that's fair enough Marina. I wouldn't want any girl in here that wasn't ready and able.

She went on to say....

What I think is sexy from the website and the photographs (esp. thesuspensions) you sent me is the distortion of women's bodies-- it's a compelling, and contradictory mixture of the honor and desecration of women's bodies. I think that this classic power dynamic is endlessly erotic-- and within my own life I am fascinated/aroused by the contradiction of women's bodies as object, women's bodies as subject. I've also said I like your skill and the formality of the materials involved-- I find such intricate bindings and the time spent to make them very sexy. Also, the fact that you want real orgasms from your models is lovely-- and shows a resitance to the already prevalent tradition of fake & staged reactions within modern porn. I am very willing to have orgasms for this project-- first because I am excited to feel new kinds of vibrators. The one thing that gets tricky in regard to my having an orgasm on screen is a time limitation. I don't usually take that long to come, but being given only a few minutes to come, that sort of pressure-- well, it isn't terribly condusive to my actually having an orgasm.

..Note to self: Purchase an egg timer.

Marina turned out to be worth the wait. Beautiful, well spoken, educated and prim. You should have seen her face when I pulled out a power tool to put a tight collar on her. She yielded herself to the day just as she said she would. However, if your activities here were not transgressive enough please let me know. I have an old dirty barn I'd love to hose you down in.

Well damn. This chick was fine. I can't think of a better looking girl we've had in here. She's ridiculously beautiful. That uber, over the top sensational hair. And her big, dark eyes. Shit. Shit. I need to go change my diapers. Okay, pulling myself back together here.....funny story.....as you know, we're out in the forest. Well, when she came pulling into the drive I noticed her car had entrails all over it. Yeah, you heard me, guts and intestine. It started just below the windshield on the driver's side and went up the glass and over the top of the car. When she got out I asked her what the hell happened? Her BF tells me they just about hit an eagle and it ended up dropping the rabbit it just killed right onto the car as they passed within inches of hitting it. Okay, so that's not a good way to start off a bondage shoot is it? Portend?

 Mia turned out to be one of the best models I've worked with to date. Yes, I know, she's a Good Girl. BUT, she has just the right type of attitude and outlook a rigger looks for in a girl. She loves rope --and not for a sexual outcome-- but because it feels good. It feels safe, it transcends. It takes her to a place, a Zen place. I've only come across one other girl that explained their love of rope the way she did. Here's how she told me she feels...

 As far as tight bondage in general, I'm fairly tolerant really what I enjoy about bondage, I like having enough control over my physical response to handle it just a little longer, a little harder, a little tighter. I also find a strange comfort in being completely restricted and very tightly held by rope in pretty shapes, like I'm no longer responsible for my beauty or lack there of, the rope is the pretty thing and It puts me into whatever shape it needs to show off. Under the right circumstances it's so calming to be completely unable to move.

 Mia

 ....yummy. That's a very mature and well thought out understanding. I like that a lot. And, at the end of the day, I found that I liked working with you; a lot --you don't complain, you understand the process, you work with me and not against me, willing to try any idea I had (including that unladylike dental gag) and you took from the shoot just what you needed. Thanks.

Oh, did I mention this chick is gorgeous?

Natalie came up to see us from the LA area. It was yet again another cold and wet February day here at the Attic. But Natalie, who brought along a friend by the name of Mina (who had some REALLY nice shoes on), got things heated up for us. You see, given that two hot chicks were in the Attic it was just an opportunity that we couldn't pass up. So we had our very first g/g action. Mina put on a strap-on and fucked the shit out of Natalie --among other things. In fact, Mina spent the whole day spanking, caning and slapping Natalie. Come on inside and see for yourself.

How could this girl not know that she sprays when she cums? You know, it wasn't just a little bit, it was a lot of spray. When she came in the second scene she bucked so hard she knocked the camera off the floor and shot a spray of cum out like a mister in the produce department. The Cunt Cam needed a little umbrella. Damn. It was hot. She went on to spray a couple of more times.

I don't know if Penny will be back to see us. When she left she scurried out fairly quickly; there was a noticeable quickness to her gait.

I found Reyja one day while trolling one of the more popular modeling web sites. I read some of her interests there and about fell out of my chair when I noticed she was into BDSM. I mean shit, this chick is HOT. Well, off went the email to see if she'd come out to see us. A few days later I had my answer. We set up a visit and just about 18 hours before her arrival she rings me up and tells me she's had a little accident. Apparently a twisted ankle wasn't enough to deter her from coming out but, of course, we wouldn't do that to Reyja, would we? Nah, we scheduled again for the next week. This time it was my turn to have to call her a few hours before the shoot to cancel. Trust me on this one, my hands were tied. Soooo, we scheduled again for the following week. Three's a charm, right? I was a little worried this visit would also be canceled due to the weather. Reyja was driving down from Seattle and freezing rain was already falling here on this early January day. With snow now falling Reyja pulled into The Attic right on time. She's a little bondage slut. Oh yeah, ass hook anybody?

Now, I'd be remiss if I didn't tell you that she asked for your suggestions on things to do to her. So don't be shy about writing in with those suggestions.

Well I think that a threesome with me and another girl and a guy. He would have me tie her up and make me do whatever he wanted to make her scream. Then he would suspend me from the ceiling and whip me. I have never been suspended from anything and it looks like fun. My other fantasy would be to just ruthlessly beat some guy, and look really hot doing it.

..just a sec.......OK,,,I think I've got myself cleaned up now. Could you put that towel over there,,,thanks. Alright, back to the narrative. The only disappoint here was that she didn't include photos. Well, of course we aren't going to go any further here without those. So I write her back to let her know. A few days later her response went something like this...

I had my good friend take these pictures of me yesterday. I hope you enjoy.
Best regards,
Romola

..yes, I did enjoy. What day did you say worked best for you?

Fast forward to two days before C-Day now. We had just finished up with Elise and I received a cell phone call from Romola. I had already told Zed that this is likely to be one that I'm going to need to go out and meet.

Romola lives 2.5 hours to the north so she wasn't going to be familiar with our area. You recall, we're out in the woods. Anyway, sure enough, while I was standing in the shoot room absorbing the next set of activities my cell phone rang. It was Romola. She had forgotten her directions. Shit. Good thing she didn't forget my cell number. She told me where she was and I told her to park in a church parking lot she'd see on that route and I'd come out to collect her. What better place to park for a meeting with a BDSM guy, right? When I pulled in she was knitting a scarf. I like dichotomies.

[EDITOR'S NOTE...when this chick got out of the car at The Attic I was in a trance. I mean, um, swallow, she had the hottest fucking footwear yet! I'm still thinking about how hot her shoes were. AND, she had some great looking feet to go in them.]

There wasn't much communication back and forth between Ryan and me. She saw my newspaper ad and filled out our online app. Clearly, based on that, she was a newbie. She had a very good fantasy that went like this...

Having a threesome, two girls one guy. The other girl and I would have fun with each other, full on cosutmes and toys. The guy would have to stand by and watch, wouldn't be able to do anything at first. Just turn each other on, tease him, until he couldn't stand it anymore, towards the end he would finally be able to join in.

..Nice. I like it. Conjured up all sorts of images. But of course, I needed the real ones so I wrote her back and asked for them. A few days later she supplied them. I liked her look and asked her to come in. She was real agreeable. We set a date and low and behold she made it. All the way from Seattle with no car. If you think about it, if you know the whole situation, that's impressive. Obviously she can set a goal and achieve it.

Yeah, a quiet chick. Really nice brown skin. I thought she had a great smile; youthful. But there was that quietness. She told me it was tough for her to O. In her visit, we brought her close to that O repeatedly....and then some.

Ryan was more into bondage, rope, than she was into pain. So that's what we focused on, of course. We always want to give the girls what they want.

Man, this chick was way more trouble than I ever expected. Come on, I've dealt with a shit load of women here. Not that I've actually seen them, mind you; well, I probably saw the picture of them they sent. But, instead, I corresponded with them. Like I said, most never get here. They just don' have the guts to live out their lives the way they'd really like to. Sara was just about one of those types. I thought 55 emails back and forth with Jen was a lot. This paranoid chick wasn't just paranoid she was loco!! Sorry Sara. I think that latter part was just a manifestation of your absurd nervousness. When she sprung out of her car I kept looking around for the spring that had her all wound up. I figured it needed some serious adjustment. Fuck. When she followed me into The Attic I thought I had a shadow on me. She was bouncing all over the damn place. When we got into the shoot room she sprung right into my office. I'm like wait a minute there now, no one has ever done that before. The shoot room is over here. Right over here. Hey. HEY!! Over here! I need you to sign some papers before we get any further along down the bunny trail. Whoops, I'm getting ahead of myself here. Back to the beginning. Sara is a newspaper responder. I think I mentioned how much I prefer newspaper responders? Yeah, I thought so. Here's how it started off...

I would love to be one of your models. I am the girl next door and I am interested in this. I go to school at ZZZ College and since my financail aid is about to run out I could definately use the extra money [EDITOR'S NOTE: and a spell checker], but couldn't we all. Any way I am really computer illiterate and don't know how to put pics onto the computer to send them, so is there any way I could send them to an address to be looked at. I like that this in located in Vancouver, as opposed to across the bridge, and I hope I get to do it. If it helps any, my cell phone number is (555) 555-5555. hope to hear from you soon.

Thanks so much,

Cutie Sara Lee :)

...so far so good. But we've heard that before, no? I wrote her right back and let her know I'm going to need to see those pics you so passionately can't seem to figure out how to send to me. I told her to find a friend that could do it for her. I also briefed her on our signature scenes here at The Attic. Never let it be said that I hold anything back from these newbies. I definitely like to set expectations BEFORE we get to far in the email exchange. This was her response...

I am willing to do everything on the 1-3 list, but on the second list I don't want to do the nipple clamps because I have tried those and they are just too much for me [EDITOR'S NOTE: Put nipple clamps on her next time she visits] and I also don't want to do any of thing involving dildos or a male penetrating me. Should I still apply??

...hell yeah! I'm not scrupulous and I NEVER want to penetrate any girl --with my dick-- that isn't my wife. After all, I don't know what I'm in for yet and besides, you are a newspaper responder, right? So I write her back and let her know we're interested. Her response goes like this...

yeah. I'll work on getting a friend to help me. In the mean time what's a stapaddo? I looked at hog tied and I think I can handle those other things you mentioned. The things I've fantasized about, well I have a long running one about being locked in a closet or small space and also being chained there sometimes as punishment to restrict my movements when I complaion too much. And the man that locks me up leaves me there through out the day while he's at work, sometimes I'm so bored and alone that I hope he'll come be mean to me because at least it's attention, but then he ignores me and goes out for the night. And that he doesn't feed me and opens the door, so I can watch him eat. Then he puts his left overs on the floor for me to eat, which I do on my hands and knees, while only using my mouth. I'm a secret from all of his friends and sometimes he'll have elegant house parties. During those he gags me and plays music softly. Sometimes I whimper and then he'll offer to put one of the guests' coat away for them in the closet,so that he has an excuse to go in there and kick me in the stomach. Which sounds so bad, but it's just a crazy fantasy. Any way..so after I send a photo about how soon after will I be working? Talk to you soon I hope, sara

...well, when can you start? I'm just sitting here on my humble little piece of property...and BOY did she complain. FUCK. What in the fuck did I get myself into?! OK, I'm digressing again. Getting ahead of myself...so I read her response and I'm honestly thinking how can I incorporate that fantasy into the context of what we do here? So I discuss it with Zed. We come up with a plan and I write her back with it. This was her response...

Well, that scenario sounds like it would work. I would consider about 8 hours a long time. I don't know though; I have never really been tied up before. umm.. I don't like the XXX thing [EDITOR'S NOTE: I had to remove this line because it was just too extreme even for me!]. That would be too embarassing because I know other people are going to watch this. I might consider it if that part was shot from the side. The 16th works best for me. If it's done earlier in the day I can do the 8th or 15th. Do you know about what time shooting usually starts and then runs until? Well, I'm glad my pics were liked. It's good to know. Thanks, Sara Lee

...thank YOU. Well, I'm going to spare you the other 125 emails I received because frankly, I don't have all day to sit here and tell it all. Long story short, and catching up to where we left off on the bunny trail earlier.....Sara is in my office. Oh wait, there was one more email from her worth sharing based simply on the irony within...

I guess my other questions are- how many people will be there? Do I get payed in cash, before hand, after, or partial? I'd like to know if I can I get payed XXX and if not that at least XXX an hour? The other fantasies I have are not things I would want to be video taped doing, so I don't know if they're worth mentioning. I'll tell you some more later, but I've got to work on my enormously huge paper for English class, instead of discribing the dirty imaginings of my mind. Thank you guys for setting up a shoot with me even though I'm probably pretty tame compared to some of the stuff I saw on the tied website. The date is perfect. I usually go to church at 11 with my family though. I'ts like an hour and a half long. And XXX is about 20 minutes away from here, so I could be there at 1pm. I could miss church. I just rather not though because it bothers my Mom. Anyway...you tell me what I should do as far as time. Talk to you later JR, Sara.

...church? Tame? OK, back to her being in my office. She immediately asks to look at the model page and starts pointing out other girls she wants to dom. Sounds good to me. But first we have work to do. OK, TAME? Did you see the fucking shoot we did with her?!! Hands down my favorite so far!!!!!!!! Come back ANYTIME Sara!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just make sure you don't miss church first!!!